Part One

'We are here to learn. I have come to planet Earth to learn.' How many times have I heard this point of view over recent years, especially from those who inhabit what I shall call the interstellar alternative world: starseeds and the like, for example.

A former mentor of mine, Neil Kramer, would talk with his customary clarity about all this. Planet Earth was a great place for learning about life. It was like a boot camp for the soul. It was hard, could be painful, but provided opportunities without bounds. If you could survive life on Earth, you could survive anywhere.

I have subscribed to the view myself. For sure, I seem to have learnt a lot during this lifetime, and a good deal of that education has been 'encouraged' - we might less kindly say 'forced' - in me by the difficult and sometimes painful circumstances in which I have found myself. Nothing exceptional, just par for the course on planet Earth.   

It sounds good, and provides a reason for getting out of bed in the morning and continuing to struggle on. Gives a meaning to life, even, when the chips are down. Ah yes, the university of life. Onwards and upwards, towards eventual enlightenment.

So it all seems great. But what if it's actually bullshit?

One issue concerns reincarnation, or rebirth, and the apparent amnesia surrounding the process. You work, you grind, you struggle to learn the lessons of this life - and then they're gone. Foetus, womb, exit, crying into the world. Start all over again. Where has the learning gone?

There are those who will say that the education of past lives will have had an effect, your 'soul' will be wiser and carry this into the next lifetime. But really? And is this a decent, honest system? It's too much like playing a game in which you are always approaching the finishing line, only to be sent back to the beginning to start all over again. If there is some greater consciousness who has designed this programme of betterment and learning, l suggest that it not a very nice piece of work.

The classic case is presented here by Neil Kramer, from his book 'The Unfoldment': 

'The sooner we realise that we have assented to a covenant of amnesia, the better. Rather than constantly wondering what's going on and what it's all about, we begin to appreciate that we can't know what's going on, under the terms of our pledge. It would spoil the whole thing; the virtue and integrity of the teaching would be lost. The reason for coming in blank, without any sort of foreknowledge whatsoever, is to ensure that everything we attain in life is a personal attainment, because everything can only be arrived at through the discernment of our own freewill. The only real answers arise from within ourselves.' (italics are Neil's)

Neil expands that the 'forms' (of past experiences) do not endure, but their energetic signature is not lost. So change is taking place through the learning of lifetime after lifetime, he contends.

I suggest that what is being described here is nevertheless the invention of a sadist. The amount of pain, suffering, fear, worry, trauma, abuse, and torture that many people undergo, and for a system to see this as a justifiable way for beings to 'evolve' for thousands of lifetimes.......? While, if we actually remembered the horrors of our past lives, that would be a real incentive to learn, in order to get the hell out of the cycle as quickly as possible.

'Who am I? What am I doing here? Where do I come from?' Take a step back, and consider. They are the most basic of questions, ones which we might reasonably feel we should know the answers to. But barely anybody does. Some spend their entire life trying to answer these questions without success. It's a matter of basic self-respect. But no help is on hand from the 'system': school, television, adults; forget it. In fact the questions are discouraged: you're a weirdo, aren't you, always asking these things? Get a life.

How insane is all this! Imagine any other situation - wanting to know the answers would be second nature. Imagine one minute you are in the middle of a big city, and the next thing you know you are alone in the jungle. What am I doing here? How did I get here? Only an idiot wouldn't be asking straightaway. And the answers: kidnap, drugged maybe, wouldn't be so pretty. The same is true for the riddles of being here at all; the questions thou shalt not broach...   

It is a system which is designed to keep humans in perpetual ignorance - and therefore suffering -, offering false promises of betterment. All the while, the aim of the system seems to be to keep humans trapped, going round and round and round again. It is not a level playing field. Not at all. 

Part Two

Another common view among those who feel unsuited to the matrix life of human society is that they 'are here to help'. Or, similarly, they have come on a mission, something which they have to fulfil. Hmmmm. I wonder....

The overriding purpose of the life story sections on the blog was to enable me to explore the question of 'what am I doing here?' in greater depth. The nature and direction of my life always seemed at odds with what I perceived as the majority view around me. And for most of my life I had downplayed this reality, but the time arrived when I felt the need to confront it. 

When the convid years turned up, this sense of not being part of mainstream existence became amplified. I really sensed that 'this was not my place'; 'I did not belong here'. The volume was turned up on what I might call 'the starseed feeling'.

Having said that, I have never felt that I come from anywhere else in particular. My home is nowhere and everywhere: this is the phrase which best sums it up for me.

There are times when the idea that some (starseed) people have of coming to help, being on a mission, sounds self-conscious and pretentious. Maybe you've decided to come and help, but did anyone ask you to do it? Can you help people who don't want to be helped?

This is a question that came into focus, painfully for many of 'us', in the first year of convid. You would try to point out what was really happening to people - after a while it seemed obvious - but instead of thanks you would get a stone wall at best, or anger, hostility, and rage at worst. Some people who were more awake to the convid con learnt a lot themselves from all this.

Rather than thinking about helping, or being on a mission, I feel it's far better to wake up in the morning, and just do whatever you feel, or know, to be good, right, honest, and true. No big and ambitious programme is required; personal integrity, and the courage not to take notice of what others may think, is the key.

And, as a footnote: if you are on a mission, who decided on the task? How come you came here, planet Earth, instead of some other place in peril? How sure can you be that the entire thing's not a set-up job? Who sent you - friend or foe? 

Part Three

'It never occurs to us that death could come some afternoon, this afternoon.' Proust

I am surprised (why should I be surprised at anything any more? It's a sign of continued naivety, I guess) at how little most people consider the matter of death. Or, more specifically, what happens during the process of death, and thereafter. Since it has a crucial bearing on what your fate will be for the rest of eternity, it might be worth devoting a minute or two to the subject.

For died-in-the-wool atheists/nihilists, the question has no meaning. But for the rest of us..... 

Buddhists may consider the topic an important one for reflection, but it tends to be along the lines of coming to terms with your own impermanence, within the wider context of birth, old age, and death. This is the traditional Buddhist approach. While it may prepare the individual for death, and enhancing wisdom in this lifetime, it says nothing about what you might actually encounter once the physical body bites the dust. The one exception is the Bardo Thodol, or Tibetan Book of the Dead, but this is not 'mainstream' Buddhism.

I feel that it is worth becoming familiar with some of the experiences of those who have undergone Near-Death Experiences; NDEs. Simultaneously they vary widely in content and manifest a number of themes which are common.

A pure white light, a tunnel, a welcome from deceased loved ones or wise beings, feelings of unprecedented love and peace: these are relatively common features. But - obviously - the nearly dead person did not actually die. They lived to tell the tale. And the reasons for their return are revealing....

So, there is one thing that all NDE folk have in common: they all came back. By definition, none penetrated beyond the point of no return. What lies beyond remains a mystery to all. But the factors leading to their return to this life are interesting.

Some, it seems, are happy enough to return and continue with their life on planet Earth. Others, however, wish to remain in the afterlife: they have never experienced such peace, love, and beauty before. Particularly for anyone who has been suffering a long, progressively painful illness, the release from the physical form is an unspeakable relief.

The unwilling are sometimes persuaded to come back. Sometimes they are forced, or just find it happening. A variety of reasons - or excuses - are typically laid before them by the 'wise ones', ascended masters, loving aunties, or whoever they appear to meet in the afterlife. 'You still have work to do.' 'Your mission on Earth has not been fulfilled.' 'There are people who need your assistance.' 'Your learning is not complete.' 'You have karma which needs to be worked through.' These are the kind of things you will find thrown at the newly or nearly deceased as justification for their re-entry to physical existence.

Karma is an interesting one. Many westerners of a vaguely spiritual or mystical nature latch onto the idea of karma as a suitable concept for the workings of the universe. Nowadays I feel that karma is a notion put out there to keep us going round and round on the hamster wheel. 

Karma: I've got karma to pay off. I'd better go back again and work it off. Yes - you'll always have karma to pay off. Should anybody look at their life in this way, they will never get out of the round of suffering, as Buddhism might call it. You can always find something you messed up on. Always find somebody you hurt, intentionally or not.  

I know of people, generally excellent people, who seem to have got caught in an eternal fascination with their past lives and the karmic consequences which are being reaped today. How someone who betrayed them five years ago was actually their mistress in the eighteenth century, and they let her down badly, so it's all payback time today.

It may or may not be true; but the process is endless if you allow it. A kind of obsession, addiction even, to knowing about your past lives and how they influence the present. It's never-ending. If you want to get off the wheel, let go of all that stuff. Yesterday's papers.....

So regrets, unfinished business, are other manipulations which can be thrown the way of the recently deceased, in order to get them to return, again and again. And again. And again. It's time to get off the wheel. Really.   

Links: A remarkable catalogue of NDEs exists at this website: https://www.nderf.org  It is well worth a look. I picked out a couple of 'experience reports' at random, and was amazed. Carlene W NDE 773 is a report with all the classic markers of a 'positive NDE', while Carl S NDE 6839 is a hellish rather than heavenly encounter with near-death.

Looking back to the previous post about the fabrications of 'climate change' the Daily Expose obligingly reproduced the events from a decade or so ago here: https://expose-news.com/2023/07/17/climategate-3-0-hero-speaks-and-releases-a-new-cache/